But, today (day 10 post chemo), I woke up feeling so much more myself. Like the sun coming out after the rain. I guess a gift in this process is truly appreciating "simple" things, like feeling WELL, with such awareness.
Now I have 11 days to enjoy feeling better till the next round. I keep thinking of an image of a boxer. You get knocked down...make it to your feet and hold steady till the next knock down. What a process.
Thanks to all of you who have reached out after reading here. I can feel your loving energy and it truly means so much to me (and all of us!).
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I was recently gifted this beautiful book of "blessings" by John O'Donohue. So many of them are treasures and this one on courage feels applicable to all of our lives during this upside down time, so I wanted to share it here.
When the light around you lessens
And your thoughts darken until
Your body feels fear turn
Cold as a stone inside,
When you find yourself bereft
Of any belief in yourself
And all you unknowingly
Leaned on has fallen,
When one voice commands
Your whole heart,
And it is raven dark,
Search and you will find
A diamond-thought of light,
Know that you are not alone
And that this darkness has purpose;
Gradually it will school your eyes
To find the one gift your life requires
Hidden within this night-corner.
Invoke the learning
Of every suffering
You have suffered.
Close your eyes.
Gather all the kindling
About your heart
To create one spark.
That is all you need
To nourish the flame
That will cleanse the dark
Of its weight of festered fear.
A new confidence will come alive
To urge you toward higher ground
Where your imagination
Will learn to engage difficulty
As its most rewarding threshold!
❤️
