Saturday, June 6, 2020

Another Week Down

Just a little update to share that my 3rd chemo treatment was uneventful. The nurses are really nice. Although I would love to retrain them on asking, "How are you?!" in their chipper voices as they access my port and hook me up for CHEMO(!). I know it's just such a rote question...but it seems particularly tone deaf in that setting. So, little areas like that (clearly) still feel raw.🙈

Lake Wilderness, Maple Valley

I am finding myself adjusting to the rhythm of it all. Knowing what to expect and that it will pass is huge. This week, I've given in with lots of rest when I'm not feeling great...and Zack and I have gotten out for some nice walks when I've had the energy. It comes in waves...and I'm riding them the best I can.


It's a strange feeling going out with this new "look". I feel exposed and vulnerable. It has made me realize how much I've taken for granted just "blending in" as some sort of armor in the world. I know the more I do it, the easier it will get. Another: no way around, only through kind of thing. It will forever give me more empathy for others who feel this way for one reason or another.

Gene Coulon Memorial Beach Park, Renton

The midway MRI scan has been scheduled for June 18th (the day before my next infusion). I wish it was sooner as I'm anxious for confirmation that my body is healing right on track. It really forces me to stay in the present moment, more than I ever have before. 

Still no word on when Zack will have to leave. We're in no hurry to get that news!

I also want to share the blog I've been keeping up for Mom, for those wanting to check in on her updates: Gail's Progress Reports. We have our own little support group going on here. I think we're both stronger during this time because we want to be there for the other. Funny how that works. 

So thankful for the steady stream of beautiful flowers that have been brightening up our days!
Thank you, thank you, thank you!

Till next week....love to you all!