I have an appointment tomorrow with the radiation oncologist, who may recommend a short course of radiation on my arm as insurance.
But, as far as the chemo...I am finished. I get to have my port taken out as soon as they can get me in.
On the cautionary side: there is a 20% chance of reoccurence which usually happens in the first 2-3 years. So, I will continue to get blood work done and see him every 3 months for the first year...and then every 6 months for the following two years.
But, for now, this is the best news that was possible to get. I am utterly grateful and have a sense of being able to breath so much deeper than I could before.
It will take me a long time to process all I’ve gone through during this time: the level of fear I’ve felt, the depth of love I’ve felt....the inner demands of having no choice but to stay in the present moment....being hit over the head over and over and over about how little control we have over things we so want to control....knowing that there is beauty, sweetness, laughter, and joy to be found even in the midst of so much darkness....knowing that if we can manage to just do “the next right thing”, the road will continue to open up and show us the way.
Trusting the process...
even when it’s so hard to do.
Feeling fireproof today.
❤️❤️❤️
